JakubDanys
I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback on my interpretation.
Here are my thoughts:
I tend to keep myself away from YT and competitions, because when I don't I realize that I end up with a bunch of people just looking to do anything for their couple of minutes of notoriety (such as eating live cockroaches like one professor I highly esteem said) -- and doing "good music" isn't really part of the "anything".
What is "good music"? Well, obviously it can be different things to different people but to me (and the musicians / teachers I navigate towards) is "saying things for which we don't have words for, but too important to stay silent" [1]. At least a major part (if not all) of these "things" are emotions, feelings, sense of wonder and other things like that. It's really amazing to me how two "technically identically" performances, even by the same musician, can sound totally different, perhaps even at the level of "sublime" vs "trash". I concluded (also thanks of the opportunity I had to discuss it with a few of such performers who were open enough to share) that the only difference was how they felt emotionally connected to the music at the moment of the performance!
Listening to your performance, besides the obvious (e.g. excellent technique and command of the instrument), I feel like you have long moments of such "sublime" connections. As far as the YT recording conveys, that "sublimeness" is not happening 100% of the performance, but it is happening more than many other recordings (even from famous performers on CDs) that I have.
So my feedback is: great job, continue like that and seek to improve even further in that regard. I understand that as a professional you may need YT and competitions so I am not suggesting (as I do to amateurs) to give them up, but I do suggest that you don't get caught into the rush of "more technique, more speed, more gimmick", regardless of what the audience demands, because there will be always someone who could be "more" than you. On the other hand, if you concentrate on the "meaning" of music (whatever that meaning is for you), nobody can "mean" more than you. If you concentrate in meaning, another performer with their play cannot "mean" more in the music than yourself. They may be different, but not "more". So an attentive listener (who can become your patron, unlike the "casual YT listener" or a bored competition judge) will definitely notice and will seek you, not turn away.
Best of luck in your musical journey!
[1]: exercise to the reader, find the author of the quote ;-) -- to hard, okay here is an help: it's not somebody who has an account on this site
