I'm sorry. No. It isn't. I am actually super sensitive about tone of voice. And if what I understood right, you had childhood trauma, right? If this was played on a digital Piano, I'd try to adjust the velocity curve to be heavier.
Even the very first notes are harsh.
To understand what is happening to me during the perception: When I talk myself, and I hit any harsh tone, it hurts me physically. If I listen to your song, and I hear any harsh tone, it hurts me.